Thursday, January 14, 2010

Living in the Unknown

Here it is... *GASP the moment I have been waiting for for over two years.

I am heading out tomorrow morning with Ryan & My Father to drive down to Nashville, Tennessee to meet up with the family I will be living with that live on a cal-de-saq in what I consider a mansion to settle in for a day until I start my Internship at Mercy Ministries at 10am Monday morning. 

So that is it folks... that's all I got. I am not really scared of anything, a little that I won't fit it at my job but... nothing else. I mean I cannot predict what anything is going to be like... So let's hope my next post is more exciting and a lot of answered questions. I just wanted to let you know I am off to live out God's calling and that is something I know for certain. I can feel God's hand moving in my life- and it is definitely not in Elmira or in Brockport. I just feel like I can't grow there anymore and it is not because they are not enriched places, He just has a plan, He always has and thankfully He always will. <3

I can't even exaplin how odd of a feeling it is to know your whole life is going to be different when you wake up... I mean we have all been through it- big moves, deaths in the family, new jobs... but I have never really read anything that captured that emotion. Living in the unknown is an awful place to live, unless it is only a short period of time ((like this night is for me)) then it is a bit exciting a bit annoying and a bit tiring. 

*The unknown... the unanswered... the leaving it in Jesus's hands... 
the full gas tank with 800 miles to go... 
the fresh packed luggage soon to be unpacked... 
the closed door soon to be opened, 
the first impressions ready to be made... 
the unknown- what a weird place to be*

Tonight's playlist:
"You're little girl is off... you're little girl is off,
you're little girl is off to Tennessee"- I wonder, Kelly Pickler

"Baby don't forget:
Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
And there's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way
Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me"
-Don't Forget to Remember Me, Carrie Underwood

"These days everything is all business
Never in one place for too long
But there's no lack of arms around me
But I still wonder if somewhere I went wrong
Maybe I was much to selfish
but baby you're still on my mind
Now I'm grown and alone
and wishin I was with you tonight
'Cause I can guarantee
things are sweeter in Tennessee"
Tennessee, The Wreckers

"We can throw what we own in the back of a U-Haul van
A couple modern day Moses, searching for the promise land
We can go for a hundred miles before we stop for gas
We can drive for a day and then we'll take a look at the map
Heads Carolina, tails California
Somwhere greener, somewhere warmer"
-Heads Carolina, Jo Dee Messina

1 comment:

The Lawless Lyricist said...

Good Luck!

I can just feel it that you will do phenomenal. You have nothing to worry about! I can't wait to hear and read about all of your adventures! :)