Isaac, I am Sorry

I didn't wait for you. 

But God said he'd still bless you.(Genesis 17:19)

I am sorry I failed you.

But Jesus died for me when I was yet a sinner. (John 3:16)

I don't really know if I believe in you. 

But God says He'll never give up on me, or us. (1 Corinthians 13:7)

I somehow still believe that I am not good enough.

But God spoke sweet words over me. (Jeremiah 31:3)

I am not sure where to go from here.

But God says He has a plan. (Jeremiah 29:11) 

I am unsure if I am allowed to still meet you.

But God says He will never stop doing good to me. (Jeremiah 32:40)

I am not sure if I am worthy of love.

But God wrote that I will never stopped being loved. (John 17:23)

I sit here at worship, scared that God will not show me his face

But God reminds me I will find Him if I seek Him with all my heart. (Deut. 4:29)

I no longer dare to dream because I await my Ishmael.

But God said I can have you* if I delight in Him (Psalm 37:4)

I don't really know how to ask for forgiveness.

But God says He will cleanse me if I just ask Him to. (1 John 1:9)

Isaac... God... heart... love... her*, I am sorry. 
Forgive me.