Sunday, February 7, 2010

I Told You So

I understand that you may know this song already, but do me a favor, read the lyrics again.

"Suppose I called you up tonight and told you that I loved you
And suppose I said "I wanna come back home".
And suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson"
And I'm tired of spendin' all my time alone.

If I told you that I realized you're all I ever wanted
And it's killin' me to be so far away.
Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together?
Or would you simply laugh at me and say:

I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again.

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever
Would you get down on yours to and take my hand?
Would we get that old time feelin', would we laugh and talk for hours
The way we did when our love first began?

Would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you'd been so lonely
And you waited for the day that I return.
And we'd live in love forever and that I'm your one and only
Or would you say the tables finally turned?

Would you say:
I told you so, oh I told you so
I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in
I told you so, but you had to go
Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

Now imagine how you feel after you know you've sinned. After you've done that thing you told God countless of times you wouldn't go back to. Think of the disappoint you feel and the disappointment look you know others will give you. Think about how a little of you is still kind of happy you did it, I mean you did enjoy it. Think about the nervous wreck you become in thinking you may get caught or that since you did it again you will never break the cycle. Maybe you don't deserve to be freed from sin... maybe you will always be this way. But, but you don't want to be. You know that whatever ((it)) is leaves you empty and does not satisfy you for long. You know that somewhere deep down you are begging to be saved, to be rescued to be healed.

And on the drive home, right after you've given in.. again, tears fill your eyes as the thoughts I have just written out surface your mind and you think... if only... if only He will take me back. If only God could forgive what I've repeatability fallen into. If only God could fix the horrible mess I have gotten myself into. If only..

Then a thought hits you, a little glimpse of hope. You think back to that ober-religious girl in class who gave you a prayer card once that quoted Jesus Saves. You think back to Christmas four years ago when your family went to church and how the pastor said no sin was ever too much for God. Then finally you remember the book your Grandmother sent you when you first went off to college, a book full of promises that God loved you so much that He sent his one and only begotton son to die on a cross for you so you can live and live abundantly. In that book it says God had thought of you and your personality, and your giftings even before the earth was formed. That book promises that if you were the only person on earth Jesus still would have died for you... because He loves you. And you start to fill up with hope, little by little, God reveals his compassion and desire to and for you.

Still, you are hesitant. How could any of this be true? How could He really care? And if He did why is ((this)) so hard for me? Why is it I am in such torment most of the time?? Has He seen my life? Could He still love me? Did He know I would try crawling back to Him? Will He say 'I Told You So?' I mean what does He really care about me for? Doesn't He have hundreds of other mindless followers? They can take my place, do whatever it is He has "called me to", just like in the song.. He will find someone new... Plus, why would He want me back? I am so selfish, tainted and just all around un-Godly. You begin to believe God can and will replace you. The world is full of better people and you will never measure up. Just as you began this night in sin... you will be this way forever.. God is just ready to laugh at you, shake his head and say "I told ya so" and move on.

In these moments I offer you this:

Isaiah 43:4 "Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life."
Ephesians 1:18 "I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints"
Ephesians 3:18 "And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is for you"
Hosea 2:19 "I will make you my wife forever, showing you righteousness and justice, unfailing love and compassion."
1 Corinthians 2:9 "That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him."
Hebrews 13:5 "For God has said, "I will never fail you. I will never abandon you."
Jeremiah 1:5  "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart"
Psalm 139: 16  "your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

Or perhaps one of the more popular stories about the prodigal son; Luke 15:17-24 "When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.'So he got up and went to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate.For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate."
^^That sure doesn't sound like 'I Told You So' to me...

----->These scriptures are here to let you know that if you got down on your knees and told God you were His forever He would get down on His knees and take your hand. He would give you that old time feelin' and you will laugh and talk for hours just the way his  love for you first began. He would you tell you that He's missed you so and that He's been so lonely, and He's waited for the day that you returned. From then on you could live in love forever and He would tell you that your His one and only <------

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