Redemptive Leaves and Idol Pumpkins

"It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all
Wasn't I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I've been running from...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I've become much too good at being invincible
I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from"

- "Let Me Fall" Bethany Joy Lenz (One Tree Hill)

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The colors of this season make my heart stir.
Even with a simple Ipod & scarf I feel artistic.
I feel unique.
I feel valued.
With just the smell of the season I crave apples and coffee.
Sometimes I selfishly think that God created the autumn season
so I can see the beauty of repentance in the colors of the trees.
Fall is always a tough season, well a challenging season... a redemptive season for me.

&& the sermon this past Sunday ::really:: proved that.
*side note I have come to realize that I have a gifting
(whatever one it is I am not sure yet)
but most times than not I know what the sermon is about
before it takes place. The spirit prepares my heart for it
and my journal is given a quick summary before the pastors speak*
During worship the lyrics read:
"Your love is worth more than life"
... and I stopped, sat down and asked myself... "is it?"

The sermon then went on to speak about the Second Commandment
and how our generation has idols & tries to fit God into our lives.
The Pastor summed it up with some *not all* Christians our age
Love God, Think God is Awesome, would never deny him...
but they get just as excited about God as... their date Friday night.
They get just as excited about their sweet 16 as God,
maybe even their favorite song on the radio...

*ouch* So true for me.
I love me some Jesus.
But I love Ryan and I love Pumpkins and I LoOOove a good Latte...

I thank God he has forgiven me thus far and that he has allowed this autumn to bring redemptive leaves so I can no longer Idolize pumpkins...