Thursday, June 25, 2009

Dear Me, Its Time.

Dear Me,

Ya know, how everyone says they have that breaking point? That moment they realized they were just too big. They were disgusted with themselves and they could never go back. I don't know if i had a moment, but I had a number. 190. I won't lie. I am 5'0 and 190 lbs now. All throughout high-school I was in between the same 15 lbs. I was 145 low and 160 high. Got to college, likely story of freshman 15. However then there was sophomore 15 and junior year denial. Now I am at 190. So why do I write this? Well, I hear eating issues have to do with self control. One of my fav lessons from the bible is, 2 Peter 1:5-8 "For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."
Self- Control...huh... Also I write because someday a girl will ask me if I ever struggled like she is. I will be able to pop open my laptop and say here, here is my story and this is how God and I got through this one in a healthy, loving way. So here is day one. I plan on starting Weight Watchers (great plan, if one can afford to do it online) and ughhh mayybeeee.... the gym. Either way I'll have my support and no matter what I'll have my dignity and health back.

Wish me blessings!!! <3


Francesca said...

Hey sweetie. You know I've been right where you are feeling right now. I know you can do this because you will remember that you already have true beauty inside and outside.

Elizabeth said...

you can do it ker =D i have faith in you

Heather said...

Proud of you dearie!! <3 =]