Saturday, February 7, 2009


.Be Real&Get Real.
That's what I have been hearing.
"He who conceals his sins does not prosper,
but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy."
Proverbs 28:13

Alright so we all know I am rough around the edges.
And well for those who don't, I am.
I like it that way.
We are all needed in the Kingdom.
"But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body,
every one of them, just as he wanted them to be.
If they were all one part, where would the body be?
As it is, there are many parts, but one body."
1 Corinthians 12: 19-20
So people like me are just as needed, loved and fruitful
as those who are.. well simply not like me.
Let's leave it at that.

So going back to the point-
I always call it "rough around the edges"
but let's call a spade a spade as my Mother would say.
"He who conceals his sins does not prosper,
but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy."
Proverbs 28:13

So here I go.
I am a sinner.
I have lied.
I have stolen.
I have lusted.
I have envied.
I have made idols.
I have used the Lord's name in vain.
I have dishonored my Parents.
I have disregarded a day needed for rest.
I used His giftings in sinful ways.
I have laid with boys before marriage.
I have led people in the wrong direction.
I have lived two lives.
I have used witchcraft.
I have been a hypocrite.
I have taken when I should have gave.
I have judged others.
I have made fun of others.
I have looked at my sin and shrugged it off.
I have come to a point in choosing sin and God and chose sin.
I have hated and cursed both Man & God.

The reason I felt so obliged to share this is because
I feel like Christian Culture is so hung up on sins.
I understand, "Do not let anyone look down on you
because you are young, but be an example
for other believers in your speech,
behavior, love, faithfulness, and purity."
Timothy 4:12
However, what happened to focusing on
God's Greatest Commandment:

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart
and with all your soul and with all your mind.
This is the first and greatest commandment.
And the second is like it:
Love your neighbor as yourself."
Matthew 22:37-40
Sometimes I feel so boxed in.
Like I can't breath or... or move.
I feel as if other Christians really knew how I was or
what I was really doing they would forsake me.
Why Should I hide?
Who am I helping that way?
I do not blame anyone group or person for this feeling
but still it is a hard feeling to ignore.
I do not want to be simply placed in a "do good world"
Part of what makes my ministry so strong is being able
to still connect with the world.
I do not mean that sinning is a good way
to get others to follow me.
Not at all. But if sin is to happen,
hiding it from anyone is foolish.
Or even pretending to have the same values as they do.
No, no more.

.Be Real&Get Real.
Being a Christian on a college campus is hard.
And if anyone makes it look easy- their lying.
Yes it is easy to Love God, Love His purposes,
Love his faithfulness, Love His ways.
But the discipline it takes to be in his Kingdom, not easy.
Feeling like your boxed in a "do good world", not easy.
Learning from your mistakes and moving on, not easy.
Giving up your dreams and fighting for new ones, not easy.
Allowing Him to touch the deepest parts of your heart, not easy.
It's not easy.

.Be Real&Get Real.
That's what I plan on doing now.
Whether what I am doing seems right or not-
I can no longer hide.
"He who conceals his sins does not prosper,
but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy."
Proverbs 28:13
.Be Real&Get Real.


Kelly said...

I know I don't know you, and you don't know me, haha, but I thought this post was awesome! It inspired me a lot.
Thank you :)

Heather said...

Amen girly-girl. <3 <3